"Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity" ~ Seneca

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


And by lost I don't mean the tv show. More like how Stitch felt in Disney's "Lilo & Stitch".
Not feeling the love at my job- or at least not as much. Maybe I'm just too sensitive and trying too hard to fit in. But it reminds me of high school (no surprise as the majority of my coworkers are in their early 20s). Not a time I'd really like to live over- it's been 25 years- isn't that enough suffering?
Trying to move on, but not finding the 'next best thing', so meanwhile I'll try not to let this derail me from trying to lose weight if anything it should inspire me, right? So why do I feel less than enthused? Could it be I was mentored today by someone half my age who has been on the job less than I have? She appears to be a total brown-noser and the management have fallen hook,line & sinker. She is the golden girl who can do no wrong? Am I a little envious? Perhaps, I won't lie ( then again maybe I will). Maybe it is pure jealousy, not envy as she is an attention monger whereas I'm lucky to get a "how was your day" from the managers. I've never been high on their radar and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon. Well see how the mid-review goes tomorrow. All I know is, sometimes I feel they want me to quit- but there's no way I will give them that pleasure.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

One squat forward, 2 crunches back

Well I'm making great profess in my 200 squat challenge. On my last exhaustive test I did 100 squats, so I have moved onto the final week. Week 6- and I just completed day 1. Meanwhile, I struggled with week 3 of the sit up challenge, so I am repeating it and maybe I can give it all the attention it deserves when I finish the squat challenge.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Free fallin'

As in falling without a parachute! It's one of my favorite Tom Petty tunes.
Looking forward to a day off with nothing on the agenda. Currently reading "The Tale of Halcyon Crane" and I'm really enjoying it.
That's all I have planned today, though I should go attack the dandelions in the back yard. Maybe after lunch.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Spinning my wheels

Feel as I'm on the treadmill of life. Just going through the motions and not feeling very fulfilled. Show up at work, do my time, pick up kids, feed them, go to activities, go to bed, wash, rinse, repeat. My self esteem has been rocked, can't pinpoint what event did so, but I think it's work related and feeling uncertain about my position. Nothing like being on the outside looking in.